Chapter 35 - October 17, 2013 - The Crash

Go down

Chapter 35 - October 17, 2013 - The Crash

Post by Bright Star on Fri Oct 18, 2013 1:38 am

No this is not a trick title, I think I really did crash. Also, warning, this entry may be a bit depressing to some poines.

I had the entire day off work today, so I decided to celebrate by getting myself some pop. Well after a near scary car ride with Bro-17 who just got his driver's permit, I made it safely back home with a bottle of Mountain Dew. Then after playing a game that has to do with the number 8, I got inspired to draw something, but for whatever reason, my heart was pounding and I was getting too shaky to draw comfortably. I eventually decided to take a nap in the hopes of calming myself down. I woke up probably an hour later and felt extremely groggy. Then some events happened unrelated to pony hypno that just ended up making me even more sad than I already was. Click was around and he recommended that I should just go to bed for a bit more. During this, he tried comforting me and had me try to forget about what happened while we tried a switch attempt. Even though we failed, I woke up feeling much better than before.

In other bits of news, I've been a bit more open about what's on my mind. Yesterday, I ended up telling two people I work with about my issues I have with finding a job and why I'm still working at fast food instead. The first one was because he decided to assume that I was an A honor roll student. I then replied with a miniature rant on why I was so smart but not school smart because I had terrible procrastination skills and I nearly flunked out of college because of my terrible self esteem back then. The second was from another employee who was on his break and we talked about a few things about how my college life was like and how hard it was and also why I don't want to be promoted at work because if I do then I'd have to stay for a long time.

At this point I'm not certain where my career going to go. I really haven't had the motivation to program in a while which I believe was caused by my college's lack of teaching us game design properly. I'm not even sure /if/ at this point I can get a job because I feel like my programming skills are very lackluster compared to other ponies who were fortunate enough to get better quality classes than I did (long story short, stay as far away as possible from any "for profit" colleges). Granted, I really shouldn't feel this way, it's only going to be me further down, but.....*sigh* I think it's something I need to get over. Maybe I'll start making games again when I'm feeling a bit better.

Looking to the skies,
Bright Star

_________________
Looking to the Skies...



avatar
Bright Star
Admin
Admin

Posts : 1730
Bits : 2991
Reputation : 1177
Join date : 2013-04-07
Age : 28
Location : Looking to the skies of Canterlot...

Tulpa Sheet
Tulpa Name: [Click] |Princess Téa| {d3rpy} _Icelight_ =CrystalShy= -p1nkiepie- ~App1eJ~ +Disc0rd+ ?B4bs? ^3pony^ \Little Soarin\
Gender: More than 2 Tulpa
Form: [EarthColt] |AlicornPrincess| {FillyPegasus} _CrystalAlicorn_ -CrystalPegasus- -EarthPony- ~EarthPony~ +StainGlassDraconequus+ ?EarthFilly? ^MiniatureEponaPony^ \ColtPegasus\

View user profile

Back to top Go down

Re: Chapter 35 - October 17, 2013 - The Crash

Post by Luna on Fri Oct 18, 2013 1:54 am

Well then, if it makes you better... do you want to make a game with me?
Sure, we may not have education about Game Development here but it is my passion and I have released games without knowledge from a college of Game Development.

It doesn't really matter if you know it or what, as long as you know your ways around it. There is always a way.

I remember one time, I met a game developer who came from a poor city with poor resources and he's just a factory worker. He took accounting as his college course and doesn't know what he is doing. He just copy and pasted code and made a good game, kongregate found him and now he has made 30+ games doing the same thing and earning a heck higher than me. But this proves you don't have to know everything to make great games.

I hope this inspires you.
In a cave that is dark, there is always light.

_________________
"One soul, existing within two bodies. Yearning to find itself on every world in which we live. Together, we can travel to the edges of this world, and beyond. If you believe..."
- Seven Seas by Amadhia
avatar
Luna
Luna
Luna

Posts : 580
Bits : 1171
Reputation : 377
Join date : 2013-02-23
Age : 925
Location : Earth

Tulpa Sheet
Tulpa Name:
Gender: To Be Determined
Form:

View user profile

Back to top Go down

Re: Chapter 35 - October 17, 2013 - The Crash

Post by Capt on Fri Oct 18, 2013 3:54 am

I've always loved game design, if you ponies ever need to bounce ideas off of someone or are stuck on the game aspect (don't ask me to code anything) shoot me a PM. Rainbow Dash Awyeah
avatar
Capt
Twilight Sparkle
Twilight Sparkle

Posts : 583
Bits : 886
Reputation : 336
Join date : 2013-05-30
Age : 33

View user profile

Back to top Go down

Re: Chapter 35 - October 17, 2013 - The Crash

Post by gift1992 on Fri Oct 18, 2013 4:07 am

that reminds me of myself at the moment.


i have to wait till next year to apply to college, feeling like waisting my time doing nothing realy
productive, semees like several people interestet in game development just like me too but i should go deeper in that if i start my own journal.
avatar
gift1992
Rainbow Dash
Rainbow Dash

Posts : 69
Bits : 185
Reputation : 45
Join date : 2013-10-15
Age : 26

Tulpa Sheet
Tulpa Name: Kizota
Gender: Female
Form: human

View user profile https://www.youtube.com/lolol147

Back to top Go down

Re: Chapter 35 - October 17, 2013 - The Crash

Post by Star Shard on Fri Oct 18, 2013 4:37 am

I think you should take on Raritys suggestion. It sounds like a good opportunity to swap ideas and skills while staying into the game and building some confidence.

For the rest, I fear we are in the same boat.I have no confidence in my own skills either. 
But if I learned one thing during internships, it is that you only end up using a bit of what you have learned at school and learn a lot while working anyway.

And dont worry to much about the art thing. There will always be days that the inspiration simply refuses to flow to the paper. Its generally wiser to quit drawing if that happens instead of frustratingly whip up a bad sketch you will be erasing again later in favor of the good lines anyway.

_________________
avatar
Star Shard
True self
True self

Posts : 1014
Bits : 1655
Reputation : 581
Join date : 2013-04-14
Age : 33
Location : The Neighterlands/ Canterlot Royal Observatory

Tulpa Sheet
Tulpa Name: Wolf
Gender: Female
Form: A wolf. Occasionally a pony

View user profile

Back to top Go down

Re: Chapter 35 - October 17, 2013 - The Crash

Post by Soarin on Fri Oct 18, 2013 2:26 pm

Don't get so down on yourself, I know how you feel. My skills are probably worse than yours actually. The most I ever done is a few projects that I never finished and a few years of ROM hacking. I would love to go to college to learn more, but I lack the funds to do so. You have to give yourself credit and understand that you are much better than you say you are. Like you said, getting down on yourself will only make things worse. I hope you feel better soon! *Hugs!*

_________________
Soaring through the bright skies...

"It's always darkest before the dawn."
avatar
Soarin
Admin
Admin

Posts : 799
Bits : 1197
Reputation : 531
Join date : 2013-07-09
Age : 27
Location : New York

Tulpa Sheet
Tulpa Name: Lightning/Ra1nbat/Filly Pie/Applejack/Rarity/Fluttershy/Scoota100/SweetieByt3
Gender: More than 2 Tulpa
Form: Unknown/Bat Pony/Filly Earth Pony/Earth Pony/Unicorn/Pegasus/Filly Pegasus/Filly Unicorn

View user profile

Back to top Go down

Re: Chapter 35 - October 17, 2013 - The Crash

Post by Sponsored content


Sponsored content


Back to top Go down

Back to top


 
Permissions in this forum:
You cannot reply to topics in this forum